2:20 a.m., and I need to wake up in 4 hours. Lovely. Right on track. Looks like I'll be crashing for the afternoon.
You know what I don't understand? Why ciggies taste so good, but smoke smells so bad. I feel like I need to wash my hair like 5 times before I get the smell out of it. Prime example why I ONLY smoke when I'm stressed. It's not so much the lung stuff, it's just the way you feel. Like smoking is relaxing and does take the edge off, but I just feel so shitty afterward. Your mouth tastes like dirt, and your finger tips smell like burnt rubber. Really, really not appeasing.
It's my bad habit. One of many.
My mind is talented, however. It should be an Olympic gymnast. It tumbles effortlessly, and can flip over and over and over again without letting up. Give it a beam, and my mind will do a whole routine, complete unexpected twists and turns.
What my mind excels in, my body has to suffer the consequences. It bears the constant pressure of the wearing down of one single thought, and all the circles my mind runs around.
Alright, I'm tired of talking in metaphors. You get the point, I'm sure. You're all intelligent individuals, whom I have immediate respect for because you blog as well. I love people that blog. I immediately group us into people that are more deep thinkers. We analyze and have more perception. We are the kind of people that are cued to share and speak our minds, even if it is just through our computer. In our case, words are just as strong as actions. I love it. Or we do what we love, to all those who have the fashion and cooking and celebrity blogs.
Where was I? Okay yes, a good habit. In my ever-trying quest to be an optimistic individual, I'm now going to name a good habit. I have to say, I pride myself in my healthy eating. I always eat fruits and vegetables throughout the day, and never really snack anymore on chips or things like that. Soda is almost non-existent in my life, and I really only drink juice or water. I do it because it makes me feel good.
One thing in my life that I need to make a habit? Loving myself more. Need to love me, who I am.
What are your habits, bloggies? Good and bad. Do share. I love you all. Jamie <3
It's kind of the opposite for me with cigarettes. I've never smoke but my dad has my whole life and because of that I find the smell comforting. I reminds me of him, I guess.
ReplyDeleteMy bad habit is picking at my hang nails. My cuticles are terrible looking, I can't remember when they were last smooth. I do it without thinking at this point, I always try to stop myself when I notice.
We could all use a bit more of loving ourselves. So true. And you are a truly beautiful soul; one very intellectual/intelligent, based on all that I've read on your blog, a person very worthy of loving indeed.
ReplyDeleteI probably have many bad habits/patterns that I fall into when I become insecure in myself. But I've been trying to cut down on them lately. :)
Agree with you about the smoking. When I'm at my breaking point I have one cig and it seems to calm my nerves.
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