Sunday, February 6, 2011

It's a quarter after 3, I'm all alone..

I don't understand how genetics works. Like, why some genes are inherited and others aren't. How you and your brother and your sister can be so different. Or so alike. How, why.

I'm a religious person, so really, to me the only answer is that God decides. It's comforting, that thought. Because he made you the way He wanted. So, you can never be wrong, in that kind of sense. And I guess I'll never get the answer to the 'Why'. Why are people the way they are. Who knows.

This is what has been keeping me awake. It's 3 a.m. I'd told myself that I'd go to bed at like 1, and here I am, 2 hours later. You know what I could've done in those 2 hours? My like 20 page lab due on Tuesday, but no, I sat here. I'm not feeling the motivation. And although I'll be freaking out later, right now I just don't care.

I'm a firm believer that everything happens for a reason, and I guess I just have to trust in God for those kind of questionings.

So what did I do with my Sunday? I went to church, took some tylenol pm, then crashed for about 6 hours. What did you do with yours?


  1. i'm from the medical field and so i kinda know about how your dna dictates your genetic make up. but i'm a spiritual person too. i'm a fan of science but whatever it is that science can't explain, as geniuses would say, then surely God would be at play.

    i'm also an overthinker a semi-neurotic who loves but hate to analyze things over and over again, it troubles me i can't sleep. just like what you're experiencing. but whenever my braincells can never seem to fathom the intricacies of my life, i say "Oh Jesus, take the wheel.." it's comforting to know that there's a higher Entity that governs the universe.:)

  2. I believe that God, does not do it just for fun, though He is a naughty and curious child always fiddling with possibilities. And since I also believe that He made us in his own image, and wants us to be like him, it won't be justified on our part to leave every reasoning part to him. That is what derives science, that is what drives me.
    But, you gave me a topic, someday I'd write on it.
    Thank You for the idea.

    Blasphemous Aesthete

  3. HA oh my gosh i did the same exact thing!! i went to church then slept from 4 until 9 then i couldnt fall back asleep until 5 freakin this morning partly because i slept so long today and partly because my room mate WAS SNORING!! gahh kill me! and then i miss my 8 o clock class! joy!

  4. I'm not religious so when you say God made you the way He wanted. So, you can never be wrong, does this apply to murderers, rapists, thieves, terrorists?

  5. What an interesting subject to talk about! I also have a strong belief in God; however, I am also a believer of scientific theories and principles, and so I suppose I feel that both play an integral role in who we are. Personally, I've never had any battles between the two; in my mind, they coexist, and one lends itself to the other.

    I hear you on the procrastination, I'm the same way; I'm knee deep in assignments/studying right now; it's so stressful. I'm just focusing on the light at the end of the tunnel. Good luck with that lab report! I know you can do it - I believe in you! I'm sure you'll knock it out of the park! :)

  6. I am so different from my sister too! I don't know how we grew up doing everything together and now have such different personalities and different interests!

    I feel ya about everything happening for a reason..ther topic than you are probably thinking at the moment.