'The Boyfriend List' is one of my all-time favorite books. It's about a girl who experiences panic attacks due to the 'debacle' of the past couple of months in which her boyfriend dumped her and got with her best friend, all her friends dumped her, and she became known as a famous slut even though she is still a virgin. It's definitely on the lighter side, and so hilarious. It puts a humorous spin on all kinds of ugly, and definitely relate-able.
The main character ends up going to therapy, and she calls her depressive days and therapy processes 'Reginald'. So that's what I'm going to call it, too. Today, I'm doing Reginald. But I didn't write to try and convince you to read a book. I came because I have some claims to share with you.
So, I don't know about all of you, but I am a huge worrier (GAD) and even though I HATE IT, I care so much about what people think. Too much. And I know, I know, I shouldn't care. I'm aware of this. And people will constantly tell you to be yourself and to not care, and while they're saying all of this, they are leaving out one very important detail.Just how to do it.
Believe me, if I knew how to stop worrying about the thoughts of others, I would have done so long ago. I just don't know how. If any of you are lucky enough to be like this, how do you do it? Please haha share, how do you just go out and be yourself. I admire people like you, I just don't know how to put myself out there.
I just, blah blah blah. I don't know. This is the frustrating part, coming to terms with what I'm afraid of, then confronting the issue. Okay, I accept I worry about what people think. But now what do I do to change it. My therapist didn't get to that part when I asked him, he was busy asking me, "Now what is the worst thing that someone could think about you?" And going around in that circle-y thing therapists do. So I need you're help ladies and gentlemen. How do you guys do it lol I'm open to any tips.
This was an up and down post, symbolic of my up and down Tuesday. I love you guys <3 Jamie.