Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Balls to the Freaking Wall

But really, have you ever thrown a fist full of glitter in the air? How about even just your arms? Maybe you've thrown them up in frustration when in a heated argument, or perhaps around a person when giving them one of those longing hugs? What about just throwing your arms up for you? For the sake of freedom?

It's an exhilarating feeling. Gathering all your energy tucked inside your chest and those little limbs, and then feeling it squeeze all together. Then, you just let loose - throw your arms up as high as you can. Up, down, across. Let something go, bring something in. It can be anything you want it to be. I guarantee you'll feel better. Do it just for the sake of being alive. Everything will rush into and out of you. 

Today for me has been about letting go, just throwing it all out the window. I was nervous today about going to my first yoga class (I'm GAD, psht don't judge ;) ), then about sitting next to the boy I've been hooked on in class, and then about talking to my dad. They might not seem stressful to you, but these little daily activities all spike my nerves. Today, however, I just said Jamie - Balls to the freaking wall.  And just went on with it. Went on confident instead of being worried. Just letting it all go. It's easier at sometimes then others, and today was one of those days. Who knew ditching the self-pity could be so freeing? 

I think that's my new favorite phrase - Balls to the wall. Has power behind it, and a drive. It's almost as good as 'I got this!' Have you done anything today that was brave of you? Have you had to say, balls to the wall for yourself :)?

And tomorrow I'm going to go in with the same attitude, let's hope lol. Love you sweets <3



  1. My friend threw a bag of glitter at our phys ed/history teacher one day... after my other friend threw a bunch of water on him, so that the glitter would stick... after I encouraged them to do it. I'm a bad influence... also, he was a douche hat.

    Congrats on being all balls to the wall today, it is a great feeling!

  2. Balls to the Freakin wall!!!! Yes I will be joining you in this!!!
    That's exactly what I needed to hear right now!

  3. Amen to this!! Balls to the wall baby!! When couldn't you use this philosophy? ;-)

    Happy Friday Dear! xo

  4. haha i love this! balls to the wall:D I am going to use this Tuesday when I go to school, I also have my first real yoga class & I'm stressed to the max!

  5. I can't remember the last thing I did this, maybe I was very young. You are right. I need to scream with joy one day, just for myself :) Love your post honey!

  6. This is a wonderful post - I love your confidence (balls to the walls)! Kudos to you for overcoming your fears, and I absolutely love the glittery photograph, made me smile! :)