Paging Dr. Drake

The worst thing a person can try to do is self-diagnose themselves.  Google has become the enemy in that way. You have a cold, a suddenly you think you have meningitis. Your leg feels a little tingly, and suddenly you have a blood clot. Or you have been feeling down in the dumps lately, but this morning you've been feeling alright, Google tells you that you have bipolar disorder.

Google really isn't to blame. It's our paranoid self. We look for something that ceases our worries. We want to believe what we find is true. Am I the only one that does that? The only one that tries to self-diagnose through search engines and medical websites? I take one small symptom, like a scratchy throat, and turn it into full blown gonorrhea.  And if I've gotten gonorrhea, who's to say that I haven't contracted AIDS? An hour later and I'm wondering if anyone will give a eulogy at my funeral. Thoughts are like children running with pinwheels. They are bursting with energy themselves, but then there's even the more inner workings. Conjuring up more misfortunes and doubt. I'll figure this out someday when I'm a psychologist.

But back to my point, and I made this point in my last point. We like to channel our emotions somewhere. It's uncomfortable for us to just leave lingering worries and frustrations out in the open, we feel the need to pinpoint them somewhere. This is probably not everyone though, some people are complacent enough to say 'Ah, well, who cares, I'll figure this out eventually.' If your like me, we are paranoid. It's weird, I'm laid back and paranoid. Calm and crazy haha.


Do you guys ever do this? It's a downfall of mine, I'm always trying to figure out what's wrong. I feel like I'm being a downer, we need some positive posts right? This is for encouragement for anxiety, so guys, we got this. Even when things are down, we got this. Success in numbers, we're not alone, you're not alone. Such a banality, but I can't deny the empowerment behind it. Words are just that - words. But sometimes the sounding and putting together creates such an emotion. It's like how some people command their dogs using the German language - because it's more forceful. That's how some phrases are. 'We Got This' is one of my favorites, or when I'm alone 'I got this.' It's confidence.

Have a good Monday, were supposed to get a lot of ice and freezing rain here, so HOPEFULLY classes are canceled. I'm still in the process of figuring out my schedule lol, a trial that will never end I feel. Talk to you's tomorrow :) xoxo Jamie.