Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Pillow Talking

 Before I go to bed. That's the time for me. The time when I feel the most insecure. During the day, when I'm around people, it's easier to keep up a better attitude. At night, however, for me I feel like I'm just left with myself. That's when those little thoughts begin to trickle in my mind, 'What are you doing with your life?' 'You're not good enough.' 'Not strong enough.' 

And I used to think those thoughts were true. I still have those moments when I do. Sitting here, upright and mind in sight, I know that they are all the wrong kinds of falsities. Deceptions and doubts thrown in by the scared little girl that's somewhere inside me. But just because I have these doubts, as I'm sure all of you do, doesn't mean that's who I am. Too often of times, I fall into the self-pity. It's so tempting, my mind eases right into it, like a bad habit. 

We can be our toughest critics. Harshly, we throw in our thoughts about our actions and words we have spoken through the day. I will go so far as to even say most of us have a distorted picture of ourselves. We paint a rough picture, one that's cracked. It's not the true us. We are beautiful. We don't have to listen to that doubtful, inner voice. "You are given this life because you are strong enough to live it." That's proof right there. You are here for a reason.

Join me tonight as I'm going to try and bring out the confident person inside me. Instead of over-analyzing and being way to critical, I'm going to tell myself 3 things: I'm beautiful, I'm strong, and (of course) I got this. Because I do, we all do. It's in us.

I needed to talk myself into some encouragement. This snow day I had here in PA has restricted me to being mostly indoors and in one place, I much more like freedom to go as I please without all the icy conditions. I've been left with my thoughts a lot, so here's to pushing them aside! Woot! And tomorrow morning I get to ease into the day with some yoga class, I'm pretty excited. 

Tell me loves, what do you think about before you go to sleep?
xoxo Jamie


  1. When I'm stressed I tend to do the same thing as you before bed. It's like one thought turns the faucet and it all pours down. It gives me insomnia sometimes.

    Then I'll go for months at a time with no trouble sleeping. When I'm confident and feeling good about myself there are less and less sleepless nights. Thankfully, as I've grown as a person I've also been able to sleep better.

  2. it's true,we can be our worst critics. but let us try to develop becoming our own best motivators. we can still criticize ourselves but let's do it more constructively. i like the 3 things your planning to tell yourself. very inspiring.:)

  3. I completely agree with you, I think all those things before bed. I literally sit up for hours walking in circles in my head, thinking the same thoughts. I also reflect on my life and think of all my fears and relive my nightmares. Obviously not the healthiest things :)

  4. I always lay there and think about everything I did that day. And usually not in a good way. I stress over things and worry about the next day and the next and the next. Which then leads to hours of lost sleep. I find it helps to listen to music because then I can focus on the lyrics and eventually drift off to sleep.

  5. What a lovely post to read right before I go to bed. We are often so hard on ourselves - but you're right, we are beautiful, strong and we absolutely have this! Thanks Jamie :)