How do you like me now?

Have you ever heard of the Butterfly Effect? Maybe you've seen the movie (Ashton Kutcher, hottiee! Except in that scene where he doesn't have any limbs, that was creepy). But in short, the butterfly effect is the idea that one moment in time and what you chose to do in that moment sets off a chain reaction of events. Life is so complex, one little experience can change the whole course of your life. I find it so interesting, and it constantly reiterates the fact, for me at least, that everything happens for a reason. What reasons, I'm not so sure, but none of us will know that. I want you to think of your own life and think about how the smallest things you do affects your life.

It has been said something as small as the flutter of a butterfly's wing can ultimately cause a typhoon halfway around the world. - Chaos Theory

How bizarre.  I always think about everyone's ultimate plan, also. How I've played a role in everyone's life. And more so, what would everyone's life be like had I not existed? (I know, morbid. But this is what I think about before I sleep). And although maybe we all feel like this world would be better off without us, we have all made a positive mark on another person's life. More that just one, probably a dozen. Around Christmas, they always do the 'Toys for Tots'.  I'm sure some of you or your family has donated, and think about this.  Say you donated a toy plane to a boy.  That boy then might become fascinated with planes, and then he might want to become a pilot. You've basically given a reason for this little boy to continue on, you've given him a dream. And although it's frustrating because you can't see the effects, you inadvertently might've given him a future.

I always regret quitting gymnastics when I was younger. I felt like I could've been great at it; I'm short and petite.  But then I think, if I would've done gymnastics, I wouldn't of played basketball. Then in highschool, I wouldn't have met my two best friends who played on the team. And those two girls were the ones that got me through my toughest times, and I've helped them through theirs, especially the one's eating disorder.  Sometimes you don't see results of your actions for years in advance. So look back, and see the positive results small changes have made.

Or I can think of immediate results. My last boyfriend, I met at a party. I wasn't even sure if I was going to drink or stay over, but I did. That party, we met and hooked up all night. A couple weeks later, we were together. And then I saw the asshole in him. He cheated on me, and even though it hurt like hell, now I can say I'm glad it happened. If I hadn't gone to that party, I never would have met the kid. He never would have broke my heart, but then I wouldn't be so naive about boys. I learned to know what good qualities I want in a man, and how I should be treated.

See how sometimes everything works out? It's so crazy. And even though I'm going through a confusing time in my life (as I'm sure all of you are), I always take hope in fact that maybe everything will work out. Nothing is easy at first, and sometimes just go with the flow.  And even though there are some bad times, look at the past year in your life. You remember the good more than the bad. We define our experiences by the HIGH points that take place, not the bad ones.

So tell me bloggies, what decisions or experiences in your life have occurred that you think set off the butterfly effect?

Until now, I had no idea you could change the color of your text when your posting. I thought everyone that did had all these complicated codes. But how do you like me now?

Haha, but okay rest of the day for me is going to be busy busy busy. I'm going shopping for my brother's girlfriend, and then out to eat with my friends. Me and my one friend were supposed to get up and zumba this morning at the gym, but we were too tired haha. We did it yesterday, and I LOVED IT! You bootyshake and everything haha. And everytime you swung your hips a certain way, the instructor would say - Sexy Time! And there was even like 60 year old women there that didn't even break a sweat, I was like damn. But it's so fun, I advise everyone to try it. It does wonders for your abs. It's like a giant dance party.

Love yous :) Talk to you tomorrow<3 3 DAYS TIL CHRISTMAS!! Jamerz.