Wednesday, December 22, 2010

How do you like me now?

Have you ever heard of the Butterfly Effect? Maybe you've seen the movie (Ashton Kutcher, hottiee! Except in that scene where he doesn't have any limbs, that was creepy). But in short, the butterfly effect is the idea that one moment in time and what you chose to do in that moment sets off a chain reaction of events. Life is so complex, one little experience can change the whole course of your life. I find it so interesting, and it constantly reiterates the fact, for me at least, that everything happens for a reason. What reasons, I'm not so sure, but none of us will know that. I want you to think of your own life and think about how the smallest things you do affects your life.

It has been said something as small as the flutter of a butterfly's wing can ultimately cause a typhoon halfway around the world. - Chaos Theory

How bizarre.  I always think about everyone's ultimate plan, also. How I've played a role in everyone's life. And more so, what would everyone's life be like had I not existed? (I know, morbid. But this is what I think about before I sleep). And although maybe we all feel like this world would be better off without us, we have all made a positive mark on another person's life. More that just one, probably a dozen. Around Christmas, they always do the 'Toys for Tots'.  I'm sure some of you or your family has donated, and think about this.  Say you donated a toy plane to a boy.  That boy then might become fascinated with planes, and then he might want to become a pilot. You've basically given a reason for this little boy to continue on, you've given him a dream. And although it's frustrating because you can't see the effects, you inadvertently might've given him a future.

I always regret quitting gymnastics when I was younger. I felt like I could've been great at it; I'm short and petite.  But then I think, if I would've done gymnastics, I wouldn't of played basketball. Then in highschool, I wouldn't have met my two best friends who played on the team. And those two girls were the ones that got me through my toughest times, and I've helped them through theirs, especially the one's eating disorder.  Sometimes you don't see results of your actions for years in advance. So look back, and see the positive results small changes have made.

Or I can think of immediate results. My last boyfriend, I met at a party. I wasn't even sure if I was going to drink or stay over, but I did. That party, we met and hooked up all night. A couple weeks later, we were together. And then I saw the asshole in him. He cheated on me, and even though it hurt like hell, now I can say I'm glad it happened. If I hadn't gone to that party, I never would have met the kid. He never would have broke my heart, but then I wouldn't be so naive about boys. I learned to know what good qualities I want in a man, and how I should be treated.

See how sometimes everything works out? It's so crazy. And even though I'm going through a confusing time in my life (as I'm sure all of you are), I always take hope in fact that maybe everything will work out. Nothing is easy at first, and sometimes just go with the flow.  And even though there are some bad times, look at the past year in your life. You remember the good more than the bad. We define our experiences by the HIGH points that take place, not the bad ones.

So tell me bloggies, what decisions or experiences in your life have occurred that you think set off the butterfly effect?

Until now, I had no idea you could change the color of your text when your posting. I thought everyone that did had all these complicated codes. But how do you like me now?

Haha, but okay rest of the day for me is going to be busy busy busy. I'm going shopping for my brother's girlfriend, and then out to eat with my friends. Me and my one friend were supposed to get up and zumba this morning at the gym, but we were too tired haha. We did it yesterday, and I LOVED IT! You bootyshake and everything haha. And everytime you swung your hips a certain way, the instructor would say - Sexy Time! And there was even like 60 year old women there that didn't even break a sweat, I was like damn. But it's so fun, I advise everyone to try it. It does wonders for your abs. It's like a giant dance party.

Love yous :) Talk to you tomorrow<3 3 DAYS TIL CHRISTMAS!! Jamerz.


  1. This is why I have no regrets. There's no point, you can't go back and change anything and even if you could, who's to say it would be for the better.

  2. I was just thinking about this the other day. Wondering to myself how my life ended up like this, trying to remember dramatic huge decisions that lead it this way & the small ones I had forgotten about. I remember my ED being set off again by something SO small... wrong place at the wrong time kind of deal...But it's changed my life so much again...It really is insane.

    I've never done zumba, but I want too! sounds like you had a lot of fun :), I don't think I could do it in a room full of people, I'd be too anxious but I want to buy a home dvd to do it for sure :)

  3. I was really shallow about girls. I used to merely look for a pretty face to flash off until I got into a relationship where the girl looked good on the outside but ugly on the inside. After a while those outside looks started to fade and I only saw the ugly inside of her. That relationship taught me what I need in a relationship and in a girl.

  4. Wow deep writing, I'm liking it. And yeah I have heard of the butterfly effect. I think it's really true

  5. You are so wise for you young age my dear!! Very impressive! :-) I look at the events in my life, knowing full well that they have lead me to where I am today. It took me a long time though to let the 'mistakes' go and see the growth and positive outcomes as I do in my life all the time now. :-)

    Thank you for the follow, esp. so I could find your blog too. Love your attitude & writing!!

    Have a Wonderful Christmas!!
    Blessings & Hugs,

  6. Most of my mistakes flew into the fan and created multiple butterfly effects.

  7. This is a really good post - put a lot of things into perspective for me. Your thoughts on the butterfly effect really resonate with me; all of our actions have a domino effect - either car wreck style or they can also have a "pay it forward" effect.

    I'm sorry about your boyfriend, I know the butterfly effect will send some love your way the next time, and you'll meet someone amazing, because there is so much beauty in you.

    Zumba sounds amazing btw, I've been trying to work on my abs, more so by going to the gym, but that sounds like an even better and more fun way to tone those abs. Looking forward to reading more of your blog. :)